Those songs...that just give you chills
I heard this song recently, since losing Chad. It's not something I would usually listen too, but sometimes these things just speak to us. Another thing Chad and I had in common, was our love for music, lyrics, what songs meant, and how they affected us. This song is called 'The Night We Met'....theres a line, "I don't know what I'm supposed to do, haunted by the ghost of you. Take me back to the night we met". Thats exactly what I'm doing. I'm here, I don't know how I'm supposed to survive this. I just keep reliving the memories, wishing I could go back. I want to relive all those moments, feel all those feelings, just soak them all in. I know I appreciated them at the time, I was so grateful for every part of our relationship. Every day I couldn't believe how lucky I was, to be loved like that. Meeting him that night, 7 years ago, by complete fluke that we were in the same bar that night. We didn't have any of the same friends. Didn't know any mutual people. But he chose me to talk too. I never would have imagined, that that random guy who walked by me and told me "I was the most beautiful woman he'd ever seen" would turn out to be my soulmate, the love of my life, my everything. Who knew that moment would end up like this. Imagine if I could see myself now...where I'd be 7 years later. Would I change it? Nope. I got to be loved by the most incredible man I've ever met. It felt like life was on the right track, I was me. He made me more 'me' than I'd ever felt in my entire life. Now it just feels like the train track ended, and I've shot off into the darkness wondering if there's ever an end to it. I keep listening to that song. Hoping somehow one of the times its replayed, something will make sense. "Take me back to the night we met..."
I'll always love you.